As usual I am going to start this week’s blog with my weekly weigh in. I was pretty sure I would gain at least a pound this week, I didn’t track on my fitness pal hardly at all, I ate brunch on Sunday, and I was drinking Saturday. To my absolute surprise I lost 3.6 lbs, WTH!!! How in the hell did I manage that???
The reason I can come up with for this weeks loss is that the weight loss is cumulative, sometimes when I have done really well I don’t lose or lose very little and then weeks like this sometimes I lose when I don’t expect too. I hope that I can stay at least in control a little this weekend since I am away for my annual girls weekend.
My goal for this weekend is to not be afraid of the camera, I am not a photogenic person and I love that my friends want to take photos of the great times we have but I hate seeing myself in the pictures. When I see a picture of myself I always think I look bigger in the picture than I looked in the mirror before I left the house and it makes me wonder am I really that big? Is that how everyone else see’s me?
I often wonder how other people see me, is my weight the first thing new people I meet see? I am staying at a hotel for the night and I have a free buffet breakfast but I wonder if I can get the nerve to go eat by myself. I think I will walk in and the other people will be staring at the fat girl eating. Goal #2? Eat the free breakfast by myself, no shame only confidence that I am more than just a number on the scale or the size of my clothes.
Alright my loyal followers stay tuned for next week’s post where I will tell you how this weeks 2 goals go. Will I be more open to my picture? Will I go down for breakfast in the morning or will I order room service?
So I didn’t post last week and I am sure you all missed me right?
Last week I lost 0.2 lbs :cry:, I was a little disappointed but I also knew I had a tough week so it wasn’t a total shock. This week was another tough week and I don’t have a good excuse but I am going to blame it being tired, my oldest sons lacrosse has been very late and I have not been getting enough sleep. Despite another tough week I have lost 1.2 lbs this week :D.
I think this coming week will be a little easier now that lacrosse has wrapped up and I can resume normal sleep patterns. The only thing I have coming up this week that concerns me is Father’s Day brunch, and although I plan to enjoy brunch since I know brunch will not be an option for me after surgery I am going to try and make mostly good choices.
The following week I have my girls weekend away which is actually going to be 4 days for me and I absolutely can’t wait to go, we always have such a good time. I don’t expect that I am going to be able to have a loss for that week but again I am just going to try and make the best choices I can while eating out.
There always seems to be something coming up that makes strictly sticking to my healthy plan extremely difficult but I guess that is the way life goes. I am constantly making better choices when I go out and I get off track less than I used to. I also don’t let one bad choice ruin the rest of my choices for the day and I am certainly not going on a food binge for a week just because I went over my calories for a day.
Small changes are leading to a happier, healthier and thinner me!
This past week has been a
good great week for me!
Let’s start with this mornings weigh in, I have lost another 2 lbs. I now weigh in at 237.8 for those of you who haven’t been looking at my progress page. I still have a very long way to go but I am only 5 lbs away from the lowest weight I have been at in probably 3 years, I’m excited (easily excited I know).
Also this week I put on a pair of jeans I bought almost 2 years ago and when they arrived I couldn’t pull them all the way up, last month I tried them on and was able to pull them up but they were too tight (major muffin top), this week I put them on and they fit perfectly. Ha Ha jeans, I win!
I have always let the scale determine how I feel and this week I learned a valuable lesson, my jeans fitting was all the motivation I needed. I like to look for things each week that will help motivate me to keep going, sometimes I look to the scale, sometimes it is an appointment at the clinic, and sometimes it is a too tight piece of clothing finally fitting comfortably.
Since I am talking about motivation let’s talk about my friends. I was very fortunate this week to have patched up a friendship with a very special friend who I missed more than she will ever know. I know I have talked about how great my friends are before and I will likely mention them many, many times because they are such a huge part of my success. To all my friends reading this I hope you know how much your support, kind words and encouragement mean to me.
Every time I talk to one of my friends and they tell me I have inspired them (you know who you are), that they are proud of my accomplishments, that they believe I am beautiful, and that they will be there for me no matter what it provides me with the motivation to keep going and I am thankful for that every single day.
Things have been going well for me for me since my last post. I lost another 1.2 lbs this week for a total of 17.2 lbs and I am still eating healthy most of the time, I am staying active and I feel great.
I am booked into a class with the clinic on Wednesday called Maintain the Change, these classes are held on the first Wednesday of each month. I have not been to one yet so I can’t tell you what they are like but I am hoping to meet some other people going through the same process as I am.
I had a case management appointment Saturday morning, this appointment was with a nurse at the Weight Management Clinic and was the next step in getting surgery. The nurse took my weight and blood pressure then we discussed how I feel my lifestyle changes have been going.
I am now booked into a pre-bariatric surgery information class on July 20th, this is supposed to give me a better idea of how each of the offered surgeries work and what types of complications they each have.
There are 3 bariatric surgeries offered:
- Lapband – Absolutely NO chance!
- Gastric Sleeve
- Gastric Bypass
I am unsure if I want to have the sleeve or the bypass and I am really hoping that the information class will help me to make a decision.
During my case management appointment I was also given an appointment with one of the three surgeons for September 4th, this is a 20 minute surgery consult only. I will not be signing the surgery consent on this day and I will not receive a surgery date. According to information I have received from a few other ladies in the clinic I will not sign consent for about 4 months after my surgery consult appointment, and the actual surgery will still be 3 – 6 months after I sign consent.
I still have a long wait ahead of me but others who have had the surgery tell me that there will be so many tasks I will be given to do that the time will pass quickly.