As usual I am going to start this week’s blog with my weekly weigh in. I was pretty sure I would gain at least a pound this week, I didn’t track on my fitness pal hardly at all, I ate brunch on Sunday, and I was drinking Saturday. To my absolute surprise I lost 3.6 lbs, WTH!!! How in the hell did I manage that???
The reason I can come up with for this weeks loss is that the weight loss is cumulative, sometimes when I have done really well I don’t lose or lose very little and then weeks like this sometimes I lose when I don’t expect too. I hope that I can stay at least in control a little this weekend since I am away for my annual girls weekend.
My goal for this weekend is to not be afraid of the camera, I am not a photogenic person and I love that my friends want to take photos of the great times we have but I hate seeing myself in the pictures. When I see a picture of myself I always think I look bigger in the picture than I looked in the mirror before I left the house and it makes me wonder am I really that big? Is that how everyone else see’s me?
I often wonder how other people see me, is my weight the first thing new people I meet see? I am staying at a hotel for the night and I have a free buffet breakfast but I wonder if I can get the nerve to go eat by myself. I think I will walk in and the other people will be staring at the fat girl eating. Goal #2? Eat the free breakfast by myself, no shame only confidence that I am more than just a number on the scale or the size of my clothes.
Alright my loyal followers stay tuned for next week’s post where I will tell you how this weeks 2 goals go. Will I be more open to my picture? Will I go down for breakfast in the morning or will I order room service?